From Aphantasia to Inner Vision: My Spiritual Journey with Morning Glory Seeds

I actually started writing this post months ago but kept losing my nerve. As time has passed though, I feel I better understand this experience and I am more ready to post this.

Some back story…

I’m over 40 and have never touched any kind of illegal or recreational drug. I’ve always been firmly opposed to drug use—even since high school. In my day job, I’ve seen firsthand how recreational substances can unravel lives, and it’s only reinforced my stance.

However, as I’ve grown in my spiritual practice over the last several years, I’ve felt a nagging intuition to experiment with psychedelics.

Over the years, I’ve learned to follow my intuition, and it has never steered me wrong. Yet, I have a deep-seated value that’s in direct opposition to my intuition in this case. Plus, I have a family and a job that I cannot risk by taking an illegal substance just to experiment.

Still… the intuition lingered.

Research Begins

So I started researching. Quietly. Cautiously. I looked into various substances—their effects, their risks, their legalities. Eventually, I came across an old book on legal psychedelics and herbal supplements. For context: I’m deeply into herbal medicine and wild foraging, so the idea of a legal, naturally occurring psychedelic—one I could source myself and that wouldn’t endanger my job—felt like the right direction.

That’s when I found out about Morning Glory Seeds, specifically the Heavenly Blue strain. These seeds contain LSA, a natural compound related to LSD. But unlike LSD, LSA is known to be far more internal. More somatic, more intuitive. Less about visuals, more about feeling. That struck a chord—because I have (or had—more on that later) aphantasia: an inability to see mental images.

My experiences have always been less visual and more energetic, emotional, intuitive. And everything about this path felt… aligned.

See this post for some more information: Pharmacopeia: Morning Glory Seeds

Preparation

I prepared a small dose: 5g of Heavenly Blue seeds. I ground them, soaked them in warm water for an hour, and drank the solution with the remaining solids. Within ten minutes, I felt something begin.

The first hour was difficult—nausea, discomfort, and a general sense of unease. I knew this was normal. But as the physical discomfort eased, the experience began to deepen.

The peak hit around 4–5 hours in and lasted another hour. From there, it softened but stayed with me for another 12–16 hours. I did my best to journal throughout.

Without a foundation in meditation or energy work, I could see how someone might get lost in the tides of consciousness and emotions.

Everything I had previously felt only as subtle currents in meditation became overwhelming waves. I was no longer sensing energy. I was immersed in it.

What I knew to be real from those meditative experiences was now fully lived. It was no longer just a subtle insight; it was an immersive experience. I was living in the fractal time and space of consciousness, witnessing how every small thought or action echoed through reality.

The Experience

December 14th, 2024… as taken from my journals and summarized.

3:25 PM – Preparation Begins

With the full moon rising, I began preparing for a ritual with Morning Glory seeds. My intention was clear:

• To explore the relationship between ego and intuition.
• To refine my ability to transmute energy into divine creativity.

I posed questions to guide the work:

• How can I honor the ego without letting it dominate?
• What blocks my clarity in my ability to ‘see’ in my mind (aphantasia)?
• How can I release control and allow flow?
• What emotional patterns are ready to be released?

4:49 PM – Dream Before the Ritual

A nap brought a telling dream: I was eating an Italian sausage without thinking. Near the end, I realized it was meat. As a vegetarian, I felt immediate disgust and failure. The dream was a mirror of unconscious actions and ego habits resurfacing when least expected.

5:00 PM – Seeds Soak; Yoga and Meditation

I soaked 50 Morning Glory seeds in warm water. Then yoga, followed by meditation. Energy clumped heavily throughout my body. My ego was resisting. I spoke with it—at first with tension, then with compassion. I repeated the word trust, and the energy softened.

I pledged to understand this trust: to reassure my ego it would not be abandoned, only asked to yield when necessary. Ego protects, but it must learn not to restrict higher guidance.

6:15 PM – Ritual Begins (5g LSA / Morning Glory Seeds)

6:31 PM – Energetic Expansion

The onset was immense—my energy body expanded hundreds of times, detaching from my physical form. Previous nausea now made sense: my energy body had been unprepared. I began to see and feel the energetic bodywork happening.

6:51 PM – Purge

Vomiting and expelling mucus—layers of stored trauma and emotion poured out. I felt space being made for the ego to trust more deeply.

7:04 PM – The Terasects

I entered fractal, terasect-like realms. Searching for what blocked my inner sight, I encountered a red light: resistance. I embraced it. I merged with the forms, condensed into a point of creation. A shift had occurred—something previously hidden was now integrated.

7:04 PM – Energy and Creative Force

I felt the joy of infinity—energy expanding endlessly. But when it lacked creative intention, it folded in and died. Joined with unity and creativity, it exploded into infinite expression.

7:04 PM – Creative Power

How does one channel this without a biological partner? The answer came as a vision: creating books, knowledge, wonders. Channeling through writing, healing, art—birthing from the soul.

7:50 PM – Remote Viewing Attempt/Removing Aphantasia

I saw giant boxes in the distance. I asked, “What’s blocking me?” Then: a memory of having been here before. I wasn’t allowed to see then. Now, I was getting closer.

7:50 PM – Physical Sensations

My nose clogged; I felt like I was breathing through scuba gear. It grounded me into the experience.

7:50 PM – The Palace

Suddenly, I snapped into an opulent golden palace. I was inside the remote viewing target. Time had folded inward.

8:03 PM – Past Lives and Universality

I was prompted to explore past lives. But the realization struck: they are already within me. Choosing one would be like choosing a single cell in my body. The universe is within. You. Universe. You.

8:03 PM – Multiple Consciousnesses

I experienced being the source of several lives, gently guiding them. When their time ended, I absorbed them fully. Their wisdom became mine.

8:03 PM – The Chitters

I understood why we crave physical stimulation: it anchors us. Without it, the energy body moves into other frequencies—the chitters. Nude and unbound, we explore beyond this vibration.

8:32 PM – Breathing Creation

Each breath became creation: Inhale—add energy. Exhale—give form. With each breath, I built vibrations until manifestation occurred. Each vibration I sent I could see echoing through realities, morphing and changing.

8:32 PM – Nuclear Creation

I became a nuclear detonation—pure destruction, fused with creation. Male and female energy united, exploding into fractalized infinity. Death and creation were the same.

8:56 PM – Healing a Friend

I connected with Friend. Her pain gripped my body. I whispered love and trust. Her defenses rose. I gently reassured her, again and again. Slowly, tension melted. I left with calm and feeling the job done.

8:56 PM – We Are Builders

Everyone I know—we came here together to build something greater. A divine plan unfolding through experience. Even the feel of my fingers on glass ripples outward through the fractals.

8:56 PM – Infinity Loops

There’s no return to the beginning of infinity. To return is to be here. There’s no escape. No end. Only experience. Infinite complexity.

8:56 PM – Debauchery and Harmony

Why not indulge in all pleasures? Because I have—and it left me hollow. I crave harmony. I lived a lifetime as a tree and learned that like a tree, always reaching for infinite love, infinite rest, there is only effort until death.

9:43 PM – An Eternal Night

It’s only 9:43 PM, but I’ve lived lifetimes tonight.

9:43 PM – The Cigar and Creation

As I smoked a cigar, I saw infinity in each puff. The smoke became galaxies. Destruction creates. Every atom, a universe.

9:43 PM – Psychic Ego Integration

In meditation, a war played out between old and new ego. Together, we dismantled the outdated. We integrated the new gifts. Then, I grounded it all back into this reality.

Beyond

The experience remained intense throughout the night, but my writing gradually became less frequent.

The next morning, I remembered that during the night, I kept repeating to myself, “I must remember this—and who I am.” I felt as though I was traveling through a fractal reality, leaving reminders for myself scattered across time and space. These markers were meant to guide me upon my return, subtle cues in the world around me to help me remember what I had learned.

Days and Weeks Later

In the days and weeks that followed, the experience lingered with me daily. I don’t quite know how to describe it, but I felt something shifting.

Looking back on this now from the perspective of April 2025, this was a landmark event and set into motion many things. One of which is that I no longer consider myself to have aphantasia and have a very active ‘inner eye.’ Much of the experience I am still learning from and still processing.

Ultimately though, I don’t think it serves anyone for me to sit here and list out all the changes, lessons, shifts in perspective that this event was a seed for. We each need to travel our own paths. True knowledge comes from within you and you alone.

All the books, YouTubes, blogs, etc. can’t tell you what you alone can. The best a book or blog post can hope to do is to point you to the true source of Gnosis, and that is inside you.

Would I recommend this?

Would I recommend Morning Glory seeds to everyone? No. But I would encourage everyone to follow their intuition.

Is this something I see myself doing often? No, I have—but now the seeds largely sit on the herb shelf, waiting to call me again when needed.

I’m always interested in hearing others’ experiences. Have you had any experiences like this?