Get out and do it

So for a very long time I have wanted to be a creative but just…did not think that I had it in me. My wife has always been creative in so many ways, paint, sculpture, crafts, etc, but I just could not make any of this work and felt like I did not have a creative bone in body.

I loved to code, do math, meditate, read, but none of this seemed very creative. I then thought, well you love to program so lets try game development!

I worked hard at this for many….many….many years and did not really get anywhere. I soon realized that I may love to code, but again that creative wall was in my way when it came to art, style, story, and environment.

Don’t get me wrong I impressed myself every once and a while but I guess in the end, again, my heart was in the logic and order behind the scenes.

I spent some more time in the smoking chair….

I thought back over life’s experiences, where I have been, where I am now, and where do I want to be.

I love the outdoors, simple ‘quaint’ things…I have always been able to get lost just in a simple picture or sound without all the noise that come with flashy video. When I was a kid I wanted nothing more then to be a photographer.

I had shoved this down though as I grew not seeing the relevance in photography. But, now that I have matured, photography has such a silent gentle way of telling so much.

If you’ve read my earlier posts I’ve been thinking again about my writing. When it came to writing I always felt like I needed to have a reason and purpose and needed to mirror how other people write.

I put this all together in my head, and well…I just don’t care what others think at this point in life. I want to share my ideas, my style, art in my way. Why??? The world is a confusing and chaotic place. In life I have started to learn that bringing some peace to such a loud place could help so many people that just need to take time to slow down and appreciate what is…what is now.

Maybe if I share this perspective and bring some of my quiet style it may help someone, if not, perhaps it can help bring more peace to myself and my family.

So what to do…I’m going to create, and create in my way….

It feels like a load off my shoulder and I am so excited to start, but it also feels like stepping over into the void and comes with a bit of fear. I hope others join my on the way into the unknown.

Have you ever had a similar experience in life? How did it go for your?

UPDATE 11/26/2024: The Truth About Manifestation: Aligning Thoughts and Actions